Will a cat hate its owner if it is euthanized?

My cat got a big wound on its hind leg after being beaten by a wild cat. I treated the inflammation, but pus oozed out after a few days. I rushed to the hospital. The doctor checked that it was too serious. The skin and flesh had separated and were bleeding black. The doctor wanted to amputate the leg. . When cleaning the wound, it was too painful. The two doctors scratched the front and rear legs respectively. Suddenly a lot of black blood spurted out from the front legs. I said it was a small wound on the front legs and it was fine. Later, the cat was still in too much pain and had to be given general anesthesia. After cleaning the hind legs, clean the front legs. Only then did they discover that the front leg was more serious. There was only a little black blood, and the blood could not be squeezed out. The flesh was also black, and after cleaning it, there was no blood at all. The doctor said that the flesh was necrotic, and the leg could only be amputated. I really can’t stand it anymore. No wonder the cat has been so obediently crawling next to me these days. I don’t even know it. It’s already too late to see a doctor now. I struggled internally and thought of euthanizing it. I cried and called my wife. My wife asked me to change the hospital, but my legs were completely cleaned and bloody. In front of me, it was a big chain store. I cried and said it was useless. So I went back and took a look at my cat. When I saw its eyes, it looked at me. My heart felt like a knife. I was scared and I didn’t dare to look. I walked away. I couldn’t stand it anymore. When I got back to the car, I cried again for a long time. Later, I saw the doctor coming back and forth to me several times, asking me to make a decision. If I wanted euthanasia, I had to sign it. Thinking about the two moving forward and backward, and the need for amputation, I could only make a decision and sign for my cat. There was a line to write the cat’s name, but my cat didn’t have a name. The doctor said to write meow. Poor cat. Cat, I just signed and deprived my beloved cat of his right to life. I didn’t dare to go to Mao’s hospital after I signed it. I couldn’t bear it and I didn’t dare to face it. I cried again in the small office where I signed the contract, until the doctor handed it to me in a black plastic bag.

While crying, I went back to the store, took the cat food, canned food, and cat strips that cats like to eat, took a shovel, and found a green area that I passed by every day. It was raining lightly, so I braved the rain for a while. The man was crying while digging a hole. After digging the hole, I removed the black plastic bag, put the cat in the hole, made it look like it was sleeping, spread the soil on it with my hands, and then I opened all the cat food and snacks it liked to eat and sprinkled them on the thin layer of soil. After finishing, I used a shovel to fill the hole with soil bit by bit and buried my cat. I once again Tears streamed down my face and my heart ached.
I still can’t let it go. It was fine when I left, at least on the surface. But when I came back, it was separated from yin and yang. Moreover, I personally signed the euthanasia for it. I hope my cat doesn’t hate me. I also want to prevent you from suffering in the future. I have no choice but to suffer.
I posted a message in my circle of friends: I will never keep a pet again!
I didn’t dare to write too much because I couldn’t accept the euthanasia of my cat and I didn’t want others to know because it was too uncomfortable.
I feel distressed and blame myself now. I will never forget this cat in my life. I will never keep a pet again. My love is only for you. If you are gone, I will never give it to other pets.
Finally, I hope that all pet owners will see a doctor promptly if they are injured without delay. May all pets in the world be healthy and accompany all their owners happily.